Late Night Musings

For some reason (some horrible, horrible reason), I've been waking in the middle of the night and taking almost 2 hrs to fall back asleep. The good thing is that I'm not feeling tired or groggy in the mornings but any way..... Last night I woke up and lie in bed thinking. You know how that happens? You start having all these random thoughts about random things.

My thoughts turned to Baby Boy. (Imagine that huh!:) )

As I'm lying there, I'm thinking........ Will I love this child like I do my first born? Will I have enough of myself to share between the two? How in the world will I be able to do it at times and deal with my husband's job & ridiculous hours that comes with it?

Obviously, there are people out there with a lot more than two children and seem to make it work. And women/men whose spouses have worst jobs than my husband's. But, this was about me and my thoughts last night.

Then I start thinking about how I can't wait to meet this little guy. To hold him in my arms. To see how Lil Man is going to interact with him (this concerns me a teeny, tiny bit!). To have more laughter and more love in our home than we already do. To know that my husband and I will have created not one but two little monsters (and I mean this in the kindest way possible!).

I'm a confident person that handles most things fairly well. I imagine I'll handle two children like I handled one that I knew nothing about when I brought him home..... with confidence and grace, and a little hair pulling (my own) when frustration creeps in.

OH the joys of motherhood and of the joys of raising babies. I can't wait!! Well, actually I can because I'm enjoying each and every day with Lil man while he's the only child. I know those days are numbered and want to cherish each and every one with him.