Live.
Love.
Laugh.
Enjoy. I'm going to do these things each and every day to the best of my ability. If I'm honest, will I every day..... probably
not but I'm going to
try! I've learned a few things over the last year or so.
Life isn't easy; it's
hard work. I
don't know what tomorrow might bring...... good or bad. I only have so much control but those that I can, I will do my best.
People will come into our lives; people will go out. Some due to death, and some due to circumstances that we can or can not prevent. Memories of the good times are to be cherished so on a "down" day.... you can pull them out and smile about the good times. Knowing that there are more good times that lay ahead.
My husband fusses at me sometimes regarding BB. He thinks I should put him down to take his naps more than I do instead of holding & cuddling him. I understand but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop. Times flies! LM is 3 yrs old...... I swear, I turned around and my baby is no longer a baby. He's a little boy. I cherished the days when he was little (and I still do!), and I'm going to cherish each day with BB. Sure, a load of laundry might be neglected and my floor might be dirty... but my babies will be a day older tomorrow and the next day. Days I can't get back. One thing I don't
ever want to say is...... "
I wish I had........ " I want my boys to know and remember that their mom & dad devoted as much time and love to them that was possible. We might not live in the biggest house or drive the nicest car but my gosh..... my love for my family knows no bounds! Will my boys think back to now and say, "Mom didn't mop the floor every other day." or "I had to wear the same socks 2 days in a row."? No, they won't! They'll remember we went fishing, went for a night boat ride w/ friends, played ball, and just in general loved
being together.
If I'm honest, there will be days when I get absolutely fed up. I'll be tired of listening to whining children. I'll get annoyed with my husband bc he worked day and night. I'm not saying everything will be a bed of roses...... what I am saying is that I will do my damnedest to live each day to it's fullest. If I do feel frustration or annoyance, I will breathe deep & keep on going.
I've loved LM since the day he was born. But the love I have for that child today, it's so much more. I look at him and my heart is full. BB...... seeing that little chunk laugh and giggle. I honestly don't know what I did or didn't do but God blessed me with a husband and 2 children who are the love of my life. Since I was and am given the job of raising these to boys and being married to my man, I'm going
all out.
Being a good wife and mom isn't easy. If someone tells you they have a perfect marriage, they are lying. If a mom says that being a mom is easy, she is either a crappy mom
or lying. What in life is easy? Nothing worth a darn! I'm not the perfect wife. I neglect my husband at times or take out my bad day on him. I'm vowing to do better. I'm not the perfect mom. I'm vowing to be more patient and understand. My husband & boys makes life
for me perfect....... not easy, not simple, but more than worth anything I could ever imagine.
I'm going to live. I'm going to love. I'm going to laugh.