a little honesty

• I'm tired.  Tired of getting up multiple times during the night.  Tired of sleeping in multiple places in my house (my bed, LM's bed, BB's recliner, the couch)... I just want MY bed w/ no one in it except my husband.  

• My level of patience is low.... very low.  No bueno!

• LM is pushing his limits with me.  Trying my already low patience.  I think it's just another stage in development but .... good grief!  He's wearing a sista out!

• Baby Boy is all over the place.  He can get into more mischief in 20 seconds that LM ever thought about.  Trying to keep up is exhausting.

• I need to lose 10 lbs.

• I want a vacation.  Just me myself and I would be nice I'd love some alone time with my man. 

• Wish Ladies' Night was more than once a month.

• No one has ever kept my kids except my parents and my in-laws.  (well, one good friend has)... I'm talking about a sitter.  We've never had a sitter for our boys.  Just haven't wrapped my head around letting a teenager keep the two most precious little dudes ever.  I'm working on but not quite there yet!

• TH and I aren't good about having regular date nights, and that makes me sad.  I feel as though I'm the one always planning and arranging.  I just want it done FOR me sometimes.  Not too much to ask I don't think.  For me meaning.... children are taken care of and reservations made.  All I have to do is enjoy myself.

• Life ain't easy but it's what you make of it.  And damn if I ain't squeezing the heck out of lemons enjoying me some lemonade.

• Missing friends who I'm not longer friends with.  Guess that's just life.  People move on and that's just the way it is.  Doesn't mean you can't miss them though and wish them the best.

• Trying to get better about daily devotionals.  Never too good to be brought down a peg or two by the good Lord. 

• Trying to make the best decisions for your children isn't always easy.  TH and I are discussing schooling for LM.  I feel like whatever decision I make is going to help shape the rest of his life. 

• Keeping in mind when I get feeling overwhelmed or annoyed or just plain pissed off..... someone somewhere has it worse that I do..... because really at the end of the day, I got it good.  But we all need to unload sometimes.